drifting through your eyes
sea of deep, mismatched feelings
holding your back
touching your lips
we kiss, i hold onto things
frolic in these thoughts of shouldn’t
i try, but still use words like “might”
i don’t mind abuse, it shows i’m human too
i realize flaws, but loathe never comes through
i dim the lights only because i’m numb to bright
i freak and leave myself unconscious
wondering one day if i’ll be able to hold him?
but when the lights dim, it tells me otherwise
i think in my last life i might’ve been a bad guy
that karma’s a bitch, but then again
i no longer flinch at your name
and my last straw was your last game
years from now, i wonder if i’ll look back
be able to match your eyes with your name
but lastly, if the blame will still lie within myself